The Storm Before the Calm
Anything that could happen, did happen leading up to our transfer.
Jamie and both our boys were sick. Then thought they were better only to be sick again. Then it was my covid test results not coming back in time, and then it was weather—literally a windstorm prevented them from coming to Colorado on schedule!
Thankfully I had my friend Ashley with me to keep me sane. She was kind enough to drive with me to Colorado so I didn’t have to go by myself, drove me to my transfer, then took care of me until the following day when my boys could get there. I honestly don’t know what I would have done without her during this. I joke a lot about being/feeling crazy during this process, and to be honest with you, it’s not that funny BUT it makes me feel better to joke. I often wonder if other women in my situation feel this same way, or am I the only one to have lost their mind and gained 25 pounds during this journey??
After 5 years of going through this, I’ve found it’s best to just be open and honest with my boys. They’re going through this too and I don’t believe hiding it from them is the answer. Being vulnerable in front of them and explaining to what I’m going through helps us all get through it together. It also teaches them resiliency... life is hard. They may not understand everything, but they understand enough. They have both been so sweet and helpful during this whole process.
It’s December 15th, 2021 it was go time! I’m filled with so many emotions it almost doesn’t feel real…like I can’t believe I’m doing this again. I’m praying for positive thoughts but the anxiety is almost debilitating. What’s done is done and now it’s in Gods hands.
Post transfer… 24 hours of bed rest, a change in medications, and a blood test in 9 days to see if it worked! Leading up to the blood test I continue to take the Estrogen patches, Endometrin, an estrogen pill, and a progesterone and oil shot. Jamie and the boys will be here in time for me to be off of bedrest and then we are going to spend the rest of the week/weekend enjoying beautiful Colorado and cheering on the Bengals on Sunday when they play the Broncos. Although I will still be taking it easy and this will be a good distraction from reality.
Thank you for staying with me.